Peut-on rendre compte de l'histoire? or Rant #2

*Me in an exam room at 9am this morning, sleepless, and no food*
These are my ramblings on the rough draft papers:

I'm so screwed. I'm so fuckin' screwed! Why did I take such a lame ass subject! WTF! I think I deserve this for being such a jerk! Lalalalalaaaaa. Interesting question that I do not understand but I do have a kick-ass pen so that must count for something.

I would ask them to clarify the question but I feel intimidated. I probably should have but time ran out. Great Hessa! Fucking great. Now the pressing question is; are you or aren't you gonna write something. And I mean something significant or are you just gonna scribble two words and leave? It's up to you, you dumb fuck! You knew he throws curve ball questions like this and yet you did nothing.

You don't have to come and confess, we're looking for you, we goin' find you, we goin' find you. So you can run and tell that, run and tell that, run and tell that, homeboy, home, home, homeboy.

God I'm really really hungry! My stomach is screaming! And I so did not get enough sleep! Ugh this is horrible.
I wanna shrivel up and die! Can't think anymore! System malfunction! Why didn't I memorize some Hegel or Kant quotes just to pull my paper up a notch? Crap. I hope they don't use this as an anonymous paper for the French students next year to correct my grammar! This is such an EPIC fail if I ever saw one!

On the bright side, the campus looks amazing!!!

Advice I want to remember or Rant #1

Why is it that, when some one says, “What do you want from me?!” in the middle of an argument, the other person just storms off? or gives you more flak for it? or just says, “Nothing.”

Obviously you want something because you are making me feel bad about not satisfying you. Even if the matter is entirely mine, you somehow want to talk to me about it and make me think twice about what I’m doing. When I am doing it for me, and me alone. Then yeah ok, you don’t want anything because hey, there is nothing in it FOR YOU. It’s mine! and i was HAPPY doing it before you came and NAGGED. and nagged and nagged. “What are you gonna do with your life?” I AM ALREADY DOING IT!!! Just let me be!

I certainly don’t think I’m doing anything wrong. Or anything not...worthwhile. If i was, then I would know. This is where I wanna be right now. And I honestly don’t care what others think. That’s primeval. And demoralizing to say the least. There are people out there who will put you down. If you listen to them. They’re always out there. Just waiting for you to fail. Doubt or second guess yourself. and that’s when they getcha! They pull you down with them, in the sorry abyss that they themselves are in. They are like sirens, only worse, they don’t sing. They complain. And they’ll take you down with them. Just don’t listen. Keep your head above water before you drown with them in their sorry miserable state.

God help us all.